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Tuesday, 26 January 2010

  • Over the past few days I keep thinking how maybe I shouldn't be in school right now. The presence of this thought terrifies me; I love school. I am a student. I consider it to be one of my most definitive characteristics. If I'm not in school, who am I? Is school the only thing keeping me productive?

    Not being in school would prove whether I am worthless or had far greater reach than I can currently see. And I guess for the first time, I want to confront that ignorance.

Thursday, 03 December 2009

Monday, 30 November 2009

  • Wow. How things have changed...

    So now it's almost the end of first semester, sophomore year. I read my subscription updates a few times a week but it's over 5 months now since I last updated. In some ways I'm a new me. So allow me to reintroduce myself:

    -I am currently an atheist.
    -I am in a committed relationship (3 months now), which is new to me, and blows my mind fairly often.
    -I listen to a small amount of hip-hop now.
    -I have 2 papers to write by 5 pm. I wouldn't say I procrastinate. More like I become hyper productive in other fields when there is an assignment I don't want to complete.
    -I consider becoming a vegetarian on a daily basis (but King Z doesn't want me to).
    -I would really like to live on my own.
    -I am sick of only making $9 an hour.
    -I drink a lot of water nowadays.
    -To be honest, I'm not entirely sure Xanga is the right place for my blogging.
    -I am an occasional fan of Tumblr, but it is currently pissing me off.
    -I can't remember what it feels like to be entirely healthy.
    -I am completely unmoved by the phrase "life is too short." I believe that life feels the same length, no matter how long you live. Furthermore, it will feel like eternity, because it is all you will ever have.
    -I glad that I don't regret on a regular basis anymore.
    -I learned how to smile at strangers.
    -I really lucked out that Emily is my roommate this year. Our room is sweet.
    -I feel a strong need for change and that scares me.
    -Everything has always just worked out for me. I don't mean that I'm always thrilled about the situations I find myself in but I've always simply accepted the reality of my life. I think that's why I'm happier than most people I know.
    -I have really high self-worth. I also know my limitations.
    -I really love philosophy.
    -I don't pretend to sympathize.
    -I like making lists.
    -I'm a lot more organized (in my head) and clutter-free than I used to be.
    -I find myself disliking people without meeting them. At first I thought I was being cynical but I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm just a better judge of character.


    -Ok, now it's really time to write these two papers.

    Be back in 5 months?

Friday, 26 June 2009

  • "The nose is a seriously underrated erogenous zone. The smell of a woman can make a permanent impact on a man's psyche. Smells, in general, are incredibly evocative. Some of them just speak to me. Like children's birthday-cake candles-- whenever I smell those, i remember the anticipation and excitement of turning 10, moving into double figures. It's not that a girl who smelled like birthday-cake candles would particularly excite me though. I like a woman to smell sexier, more sophisticated, and fresher. And in order to carry that off, she has to be a woman who makes the most out of her life: She is content and comfortable in her skin, and knows exactly how seductive that is, but she would never intentionally break your heart. She refused to play power games. After all, life is too short. She in a straight talks, shoots from the hip, but carries herself with complete confidence and isn't needy. She can take what she wants whenever she wants it, but can also wait patiently until it arrives. She is completely present and in the moment when you're talking to her, even at a crowed, noisy party. Yet somehow she also manages to sneak you a glance from across the room to let you know she's thinking of you. Most important, she's happy. And that's a rare commodity these days. She wants to connect. To be real. And to have fun-- 'cause fun is underrated in the modern world. And she knows that. She smells alive."

    -Ben Lee

    Found this passage when cleaning my room. Read it a few years ago and always thought it was a nice, however fictional, woman to try to encompass.

    p.s. It's my 19 birthday today.

Thursday, 23 April 2009

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    • Member Since: 4/5/2006

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